Grace is defined by Merriam-Webster (v): “to confer dignity or honor on”.  Grace is my word for 2019.  I need to give myself more of it this year.  We’re already in week two of the New Year, and I am already ready to throw in the towel and wait for 2020.

Why do we do this to ourselves?  Or maybe I am just a weirdo?  I do think I am a perfectionist, but a lazy perfectionist.  I have ridiculously high standards, but I also LOVE naps and binge-watching Netflix.  These things contradict each other and it makes life hard.  I am in a constant tug-of-war between wanting to do EVERYTHING (and needing to do everything perfectly) and absolutely nothing.  It’s exhausting.  It’s also where I need to give myself grace.

Just starting, be it, pressing play on my at-home-workout (80-day obsession that I am now 6 days behind in that I started 7 days ago…) or just start typing a blog post.  I got behind in my workout because I couldn’t do the moves perfectly.  WHAT?!  I JUST started…why in the world do I think I’ll be Instagram model ready after 30 minutes? This blog thing.  I have been wanting to blog more since last year…I haven’t been consistent because I thought I was boring.  I might be, but I also think I have a lot of valuable information to share :). Plus, maybe I find out I am not boring??

“Grace is about acceptance, forgiveness, love, and as hard and bitter as this is to swallow, it heals you unlike anything else. There is no magic formula, but those who are open to the possibility of it occurring and those who practice self-compassion will tell you that grace begins to mold together with the fractures.” – Kristin Meekhof

Accept where I am, forgive when I am not perfect, and love the process.  Here’s to a perfectly imperfect 2019.